She got me again

She got me again
Drunk off the smell
That vibrates from her deeply soft skin
Her eyes beams
As I narrate dreams seen
To manifest from within
Back at my glass again
I'm wine in
And on the inside whine-n
For her love
I'm jones
My bones harden
Pheromone from her secret garden
In truth for me
Her body is calling
Pierced preparation at the bank of her rivers foundation
My heart cradles
The moments that now is creating
Conversation blatant
I cant stand this waitin
But what more can you say when
Jah has allowed the lips of her angelic being to sip wine with yours
Indebted to he
For granting me such mercy
Im grateful
Hugged by the wings of an angel and off her presence alone
Im full
Full of memories
That feels like 100 centuries old
Her gentle tone told stories of days passed
We both sip from our glass
As the narration goes on
We both laugh
At work place happenings
Wine kicks in
My body's craving her leg on my shoulders
What's happening
Kisses run rapid from my lips to her body
Moment so Godly
Im fishing kisses from her lake
She wants to hug me
Oh hell NAW.... I'm like waaaaiiiiT!
You can hug me forever
But for now I need you to sit your pretty pink on my face
She smiled and said not now
In all truth a brother frown
And by now my pants were down
Back up
I backed up
She moved in
I gave in
Hugs from an angel
She got me again
Damn

Somewhere between now & possibilities

Chocolate smiles with sapphire eyes
sun kissed skin and ancient thighs
proud portrait of midnight's perfection
A to close dream in a distant reality
a sacred presence protected by a beaming aura
hair locked by time telling tons of tales
Of royal beginnings
she wears the scent of eternity
that which is wished upon by me
nude encounters penetration-less
bodies touching and just one kiss
gentle invitations
to an evening of dinner
love jones and a black summer's night
etching these moments in memory forever as good-times
in a world of beautiful pieces she's dy-no-mite!(in my J.J voice)

On the 10th day of my 21 day fast

I Have to continue at another space and time due to a cold that is slowly kicking me in my throat. It was a blessed journey. I am ever grateful to the oneness. In the supreme light of love, be blessed.

day 7 of my 21 day liquid fast/ancient egyptian proverbs

Peace and blessings beautiful people, my fast is going great. I have a great deal of energy and my spirit is on high. In 7 days I've lost 9 pounds. To great news just came through the wire from one of my Baba's. Give thanks, all praise due Jah.

"The day time of the body is the night time of the soul; the night time of the body is the daytime of the soul."

"Awaken yourself, you who are Heru! Rise up against Set! Raise yourself and Asar, as a spiritDivine, as the son of Geb, being his first born, arise as Anpu and be the object of adoration for all!"

"one man is rich, another is poor, but food remains for him who shares it. As to him who was rich last year, he is a vagabond this year; don't be greedy to fill your belly, you don't know your end at all. should you come to be in want, another may do good to you. When last year's watercourse is gone, another river is here today."

Day 4 out of 21... fasting is humbling

From my reading during my sacrifice...
"To change your mood or mental state, change your vibration."
"If you travel on a road made by your own hands each day, you will arrive at the place where you want to be."
"Stand in a place uncovered to the sky, facing west to the sinking sun, and make your solemn worship, and the same way as he rises to the east in the morning. Now, make thy body still."
"You, alone can speak. Wonder at this glorious prerogative; and pay to the Supreme who gave to you the gift of life a rational and welcome praise, teaching your children wisdom, instructing the offspring of your loins in piety."
"O praise the goodness of the Supreme Being with songs for thanksgiving, and meditate in silence on the wonders of HIS and HER love; let thyheart overflow with gratitude and acknowledgment, let the language of thy lips speak praise and adoration, let the actions of thy life show thy love to Universal Law."

15 minutes before my 3rd day of my 21 day liquid fast

32 Then Jesus called his disciples unto him, and said, I have compassion on the multitude, because they continue with me now three days, and have nothing to eat: and I will not send them away fasting, lest they faint in the way. 33 And his disciples say unto him, Whence should we have so much bread in the wilderness, as to fill so great a multitude? 34 And Jesus saith unto them, How many loaves have ye? And they said, Seven, and a few little fishes. 35 And he commanded the multitude to sit down on the ground. 36 And he took the seven loaves and the fishes, and gave thanks, and brake them, and gave to his disciples, and the disciples to the multitude. 37 And they did all eat, and were filled: and they took up of the broken meat that was left seven baskets full. 38 And they that did eat were four thousand men, beside women and children.

Day 2 of my 21 day liquid fast

Today I am taking it slow... I can feel it already. Slight headach and stomach rumbling on a 100,000...lol give thanks for the srength of the great one. Video updates soon

Weigh in day 1 of fast

Day 1of my fast I weigh in at a solid 208. 20 more daYs to go.

I will not fail.

At Chili's with my son watching him smash his food. He know Im fasting and he was on his, "dad can you please take me to Chili's" jawn... Lol. This cold glass of ice water will do...lol. Lion heart faithful to the process.

Day 1 of my 21 day liquid fast

Peace annd many blessings to all positive hearts and souls. A new season is here so that means it's time to cleanse self once again. I will keep all posted on my journey for the next 21 days as I walk as the conquering lion that I am to reach my journey's end. October the 15th will be my end point. I will weigh self everyday and give updates on my reading and other gems that Jah may send to me during my time of sacrifice. Big respect and 1ness.

Precious Moving On

It takes strength to believe
Believe me it does
Today's a new day
No long where I was

Face full of water
In order to regain consciousness
There's a ring at the door
Momma thinking who in the hell is it

Momma confused
Screaming about saving her welfare blues
And her blues about her baby's father
Fathering her baby's babies too

Children yellin for help
Through imaginary acts
Being white and not black
Skinny and no longer fat

Phycological break down
Praying everyday
That some day
Will come a break now

Reality is hell
So she's better off dreaming
At times she doesn't like being there
Because she wakes up screaming

Instead of seeing God
In her mom
She's confronted by her momma's demons
Only if her dad would have exposed of his semen

Filled with hopes and dreams
But her environment is hell
Every time she looks into a mirror at herself
I love you is hard to tell

Yellow is her favorite color
But she's not reflecting it's energy
The death of a precious butterfly
At the verbal hands of her mother

Fighting for her baby
And maybe not fit fully
But through her teacher
She knows that God has something for she

Home from the hospital
Momma holding her grandson saying he looks just like her man
Precious getting water
Glass flys from momma's hand

Monster on the loose
She grabs T.V from the stand
Precious falling down the steps
With Abdul in her hands

T.V hits the floor
Precious got up and ran
Today's a new day
The test of a true woman

So much hurt and pain born in America
And never saw her dream such is crying shame
Born into sin
And worse in this American machine

Raped or consensual
Perception in this case is detrimental
The strength of a fighter
Base off of the fights with life that she's gotten in to

She has her eyes on the prize
Regardless of the social ills and family ties
Family is that of alike spirit
Because blood family lies

It takes strength to believe
Believe me it does
Today's a new day
Precious is no long where I was

TAKE A STAND WHILE WE STILL CAN

SITIN' BACK WATCHIN' THE WORLD TURN

CHILDREN INTO UNIDENIFIABLE SUSPECTS
MADE TO LIVE LIFELESS WITHOUT REGRET
OR BETTER YET
SPIRITLESS
TAKE A STAND IF U FEELIN' THIS
HAS 2 STOP SOMEWHERE
SO Y NOT HERE
IF WE R 2 B RESPONSIBLE SOCIALIERS
MAKE B.A.D. CHOICES THE CAMPAIGN OF THE YEAR
GIVE THE YOUTH  THEIR VOICE BACK
MOST OF WHOM SUFFERS FROM BEING THE OFFSPRING OF CRACK
WE BLAME THEM
WHEN WE SHOULD BE HOLDIND RONALD REAGAN OR AMERICA FOR THAT
KIDS KILLIN' KIDS
WHERE'S THE COMMUNITY AT
IF WE ARE SCARED TO DIE FOR OUR CHILDREN
WHAT ARE WE LIVING FOR
JUST THE OTHER DAY
THE DEVIL KNOCKED ON MY DOOR
I GAVE THE SUCKA A TOWEL
AND TOLD HIM TO PUSH ON
PROTECTED BY MY ANCESTORS
SO I SAY WHAT I FEEL
TRUTH OVER POWER
IS HOW YOU KEEP IT REAL
AND TODAY OUR CHILDREN REALITY
IS BEING ALTERED WITHOUT OUR SAY
SOME TIMES THE BEST THING TO DO
IS TO TAKE A PUBLIC STAND
AFTER YOU MEDITATE AND PRAY
JAH GAVE US WHAT WE CALL ON HIM FOR
SO LET THIS BE A CALL TO ACTION
SO OUR CHILDREN DON'T HAVE TO DIE ANY MORE
CRY ANY MORE
HURT STRUGGLE OR PAIN LIKE BEFORE
HOPE IS THE CONVERSATION THAT CAN REJUVENATE A NATION
SO LETS FACE IT
WE ALL DID WRONG AT SOME POINT
MADE SOME BAD CHOICE
BUT IF IT WASN'T FOR THAT ONE EAR THAT EMBRACED OUR VOICE
WE WOULDN'T BE WHERE WE ARE
SO TOGETHER LET'S REACH FOR THE JAH IN US
& IN THAT PROCESS GIVE THANKS FOR THE STARS

LOVE'S LINE

LOVE IS
WHAT IT WAS CREATED TO BE
IT DOESN'T LOVE YOU
NOR DOES IT LOVES ME
LOVE IS
THE OFFSPRING OF ITSELF
HEALTHY AS THE DAY JAH KISSED IT
& SO IT BECAME
HUMAN BEINGS
MAKE  LOVE A GROWING PAIN
CLAIMING IT AS THERE OWN
YET
BREAKING METAPHORS & HEARTS ALIKE
IN LOVE'S NAME
LOVE IS
THE BIO-RHYTHM OF THE 7 SEAS
IT'S A SMILE
MASKED AS THE WIND KISSING TRESS
LOVE IS
FAR DIVINE
IF NOTHING ELSE
HERE'S LOVE'S LINE

CARPE DIEM

CARPE DIEM
As it was told to me
In every second there's a moment
In every moment lives history
So in this moment of eternity
The story BE
Live with pride like a panther
Up until the day of
Smile & show love
Always remember that spirit is thicker than blood
Humility is one's ability to serve ego-less
Opposition is a mountain
That the strong climbs regardless
Intellectually inclined
Prime for this space
The time is NOW
No one can take your place
Stand not only for what you believe
But stand stronger for what is truth
Your legacy is naught
If your work isn't geared toward preserving the youth
Warrior Scholars
Speaking power beneath truth
For the life of the movement
What are you willing to do
CARPE DIEM
What else is there for us to do
Work hard & plan smarter
dedicate yourself to the process
Someday become a martyr 
Here's the torch
Now go give voice to the voiceless
And sight to the blind
Even if they are in chains
Show them how to become free in the mind
Divine is your shine
Wisdom & pure light
If there ever was a time
Now is the best time to fight
CARPE DIEM

GODNIETERNITY

I could smell the rain
as she came to her senses
i extended parts of self to her-self
grateful we were
time still & moments of eternity entered
by entities formally known as her and i
no longer separated as us
intertwine like earth & dust
beings just being
doing heavenly things
most people don't even get to experience in their dreams
silent kisses and loud hugs
60 seconds turned into 60 minutes
that morphed into 60 days
tripped into 60 weeks
months and cross over into 60 years
all in 60 seconds
this moment has taken a life of it's own
authentic and soul-grown
there's no place like this
to hell with being home
a new moment is born to an old sun
and an older moon
eclipsed by stars imploding and exploding
on to one's self
or one self
as two energies arrive at nothing
or no-thing else but tongues touching
on a journey of remembrance
questioning reflection of water falling to my tongue
i am reminded
as she smile shaking her life upon me with open arms
and legs
i am convinced
that God is a black woman
and I must return through her to get to my life source

Gone in 60 seconds

center stage of me
on the face of he
she sits
the moment is emphasized
to our surprise
Jah tears are translated into rain
a love lost purposefully in translation
as aged grapes take part in the ceremony
elevated thoughts
and thought thinks as he speaks
authentic liquids from her eden
fulfilling mystery has me sleeping
between now & nowhere
sacred moans and meditative prayers
she scream bed creams into existence
as i day dream flash backs of her bent back
forward thrust
trust
this is going to be 60 seconds of
love
lust
desire
trust
needs
late night wants
come back please
thoughts of meeeezzzz
by sheeezzz
and weeeeezzzz
having a in depth conversation with Jah
about her being
and my being hungry for her
longing for her
crying for a place in zion for us
60 seconds has never been as long as this is
what this is is
60 moments calculated with precision
Jah's intuition
of a man chasing an angel's vision
of a sunset pyramid angle to a perfect waterfall
and he laid there kissing her lips long
45 seconds she's twitching
jerking her hips and leaking life
on the face of him
she clench tightly
embracing him
thunder storms strong
as if her and nature were heavenly in tune
I wish i could tell you more but
in 60 seconds i was gone

A Grandmother's Prayer

Another black son is gone

Another mother mourns the life of her prince

Tears are born and the candles are lit

Distant prayers and a silent wish

Asking God and his angels to protect a grandmother's gift

Hearts are torn and in our chest pain exist

God there has to be a place better than this

Where the laws are JUST and our babies are protected

It feels as if no one is safe anymore

No LOVE in the heart of this city

Just unjustified war

Criminals of all kind thinking that they are above the law

Cops killing children

There's no wonder that the youth don't respect the law

My hands are getting tired and my knees are sore

Please protect my grandchildren

I can't do this much more

You borrowed this one but let the rest be due to natural cause

At times I just wanna holler and scream

My grandchild is gone

He will never get to hear about his daughter's dreams

You told me to never wish ill-will on anyone

But how would you feel if the police took out your grandson

This is a grandmother plea

A cry

A call for help

I need you God

I can't do this by myself

I'm given this all to you

My pain in layers

As I count my blessings and hold my grand-babies close

In this grandmother's prayer

A BREATH OF NEW LIFE

To kiss her would be slavery
With just a touch of her lips will take over me
I'm contemplating giving it all to she
Just a moment in time this time
Is how she broke it down for me
I'm strong and sure of self
But scared of she
He who is me be
So kiss her
Maybe
But look at her gaze at me
As if I left her in our last galaxy
Now she's back to claim me
Cleanse and rename me
This gotta be
A dream see
I went to sleep 28 years ago
And now I find me shaking self
To wake up to confront life again
She stands center of two unbearable beams of ligth
What are her intentions
Is what I ask myself
Seeelllllllffffffffff!!!!!
She's coming closer
Wet from traveling
Now I'm babbling
Staggering and stuttering
God I give in
That's when
Her body fell upon mine
And she asked what was wrong
Like a breath of new life
Gentle and polite
I kissed her & said
I agree you're right...


To be continued... ET. 09.

AMERICA

THE SUN IS CLIMBING ON THE BACK OF THE SON
AS HE STATES HIS CLAIM TO LIFE
UNDER THE IDEAL OF FREEDOM JUSTICE AND EQUALITY
PUZZLED BECAUSE OF THE TROUBLES THAT FOLLOWS HE
USE TO BELIEVE IN HER
DEFENDED HER
WORKED FOR HER
WAS LOYAL TO HER
CARRIED HER IDEALS
DID TIME FOR HER
OR SO HE THOUGHT
UNTIL ONE RECORD BREAKING WINTER
SHE DIDN'T SHOW AND PROVE HERSELF TRUE
WHO KNEW
SHE WOULD LEAVE HIM AND HIS 6 SIBLINGS ALONE WITHOUT HEAT
OR FOOD
YOUNG AND NAIVE TO HER WAYS
HE THOUGHT HE WAS A FREE CITIZEN
CLEARLY HEIS ACTIONS WERE THOSE OF SLAVES
BRAVE SOUL
BRAVE CHILD OF THE SUN
I UNDERSTAND YOUR PAIN
STARING DOWN THE BARRLE OF HER GUN
LOADING DECEIVING BULLETS TO PIERCE YOUR PERCEPTION
ELIMINATING YOUR AUTHENTIC THOUGHTS
IMPLANTING HER WORLD VIEW MARINATED IN HER HOUSE OF CORRECTION
WITH HER FINGER GRASPING A RED WHITE & BLUE TRIGGER
SCREAMING "NIGGER" AS IF SUCH WAS YOUR NAME
PRINCE OF A LAND FOREIGN TO THE NATIVE
CONTINUE TO BELIEVE IN WHO YOU ARE AND HOLD YOUR HEAD
DESPITE YOUR STRUGGLE
YOU ARE THE GREATEST
KEEP GOD IN SIDE
THE WORLD KNOWS SHE'S A RACIST


-TROUBLEDSON-ET.10.