LOVING HER TO DEATH

(HE OVER HEARD HER TALKING WITH SOMEONE)

SHE SAID, "I would rather possess eyes that know no sight
ears that know no sound
hands that know no touch
(MORE) than a heart that knows no love"

HE SAID, "JAH, PLEASE OVERSTAND THAT I TAKE NOTHING FOR GRANTED  THAT YOU'VE GIVEN ME. I JUST ASKETH OF YOU TO TAKE MY SENSES SO THAT I MAY BE ABLE TO CONNECT WITH SHE; YET, LEAVE MY HEART FULLY OPERATIONAL JUST IN CASE SHE NOTICE ME. JAH BREATHE HER SCENT IN THE WIND TO ME. IN THE CENTER OF THE SUN PLAY MY LIFE STORY FOR HER AND FAMILY TO SEE. HOPEFULLY THEY APPROVE OF WHAT I AM THROUGH YOUR SIGHT OF ETERNITY. LET THEM SEE THAT THE ME, WHO REFLECTS THE YOU, IS READY FOR SHE WHO MY HEART CALLS DESTINY. HER SPIRIT IS MY SPIRIT'S RECIPE. WHEN SHE'S GIVING ADVICE TO OTHERS SHE CAPTURES ME... JAH I NEED YOU NOW, PLEASE RESCUE ME. I AM READY TO LIVE FOR HER AND I AM WILLING TO SPEAK WITH DEATH IF THAT'S MY EXPERIENCE FOR HER. MOMENTS ARE RUNNING DOWN, AND TIME IS TICK TOCKING ON THE WALLS OF OUR VIRGINITY. SHE WOULD RATHER BE WITHOUT FEELING, DEAF, AND BLIND WITH POWERS TO LOVE LIKE I LOVE THEE. SO JAH YOU SEE, IMPRISON MY SENSES IN ORDER TO TEST THE FAITH OF SHE. THE SCIENCE IN ME WISH TO STUDY HER ASTROLOGY. THIS IS STARTING TO BOTHER ME!!!!! JAH-PLEASE RESPOND TO ME!!!! HELL IS LIFE WITHOUT HER. WHY WASN'T SHE IN THE STARS OF ME. I WOULD HAVE WATCHED HER SHOW EVERY NIGHT ALONG WITH HER COMPANY...I BELIEVE IN YOU SO WHY DON'T YOU BRING HER TO ME?!?!!?!? I WANT HER THE WAY THAT YOU WANT ME!!!

JAH-SMILE... I ALREADY HAVE YOU THE WAY I WANT YOU, BUT I HEAR YOUR PLEA. OVERSTAND THIS IF ANYTHING, IF I DON'T BRING YOU HER YOU STILL HAVE ME. YOU LOVE THE WAY SHE WALK, TALK, SMILE, AND THE WAY SHE BREATHES. IN THE SIMPLEST FORM YOU LOVE HER THE WAY YOU LOVE ME...OKAY, I SEE. WAS SHE THE REASON YOU ROSE FROM YOUR BED? IS SHE THE REASON THE SUN IS WHERE IT IS? IS SHE THE REASON THAT ALL LIFE IS? IS SHE THE REASON BLOOD PUMPS THROUGH YOUR VEINS? IS THE REASON YOU MADE IT THROUGH THE TOUGHEST YEARS OF YOUR EXISTENCE? IS SHE THE REASON YOUR BROWN EYES GLOW WHEN STANDING IN THE LIGHT? WHO GAVE YOU THAT SMILE? WHO GAVE YOU THOSE FEELINGS? WHO GAVE YOU LOVE? I CAN GUARANTEE YOU IT WASN'T HER.   

HE SAID CRYING, "FORGIVE ME IF I OFFENDED YOU, BELIEVE ME I DON'T WANT TO. I NEVER LOOKED AT THE SITUATION TO THAT EXTENT, BUT SINCE WE ARRIVED AT THIS MOMENT, JAH YOU GOT ME BENT. SHE IS MY REASON FOR RISING. SHE IS THE REASON I SHINE FROM WHERE I AM AND BEYOND THAT SHE HELPED ME BECOME A BETTER MAN. SHE IS MOTHER OF ALL LIFE THAT WHY I CALL HER EARTH IN YOUR LIGHT. THOUGHTS OF HER PUSHES THE BLOOD THROUGH ME LIKE HARD LIQUOR BUT I FIGURE YOU KNOW THAT TOO. SHE PROVIDED STRENGTH THROUGH A GAZE TO MY SOUL... I'M NOT SAYING SHE'S BEFORE YOU I JUST DIDN'T HAVE ANYTHING GREATER TO COMPARE HER TO...WHAT'S HAPPENING TO ME?!?! MY LEGS AND MY FEET!!! ARE YOU MAD AT ME? JAH I THOUGHT YOU WOULD OVERSTAND ME. MY ARMS, I CAN'T SEE!!! (CRYING HARDER) WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME?!?!?! DID YOU CONSIDER OUR CONVERSATION BLASPHEMY?

JAH- DO YOU STILL LOVE HER AS MUCH AS YOU LOVE ME? YOU CRY QUESTIONING ME ABOUT BLASPHEMY WHEN I'M JUST ANSWERING THEE. FEEL YOUR CHEST... THAT'S YOUR HEART BEAT. IF SHE COMES YOUR WAY LOVE CAN STILL LIVE AND AT THAT MOMENT GIVE THANKS TO ME. I ADMIRE YOUR WILL BUT DID YOU EVER TAKE IN TO CONSIDERATION HOW SHE FEELS? DO SHE LIKE YOU OR EVEN CARE? DO SHE KNOW YOU EVEN EXIST WHEN YOU'RE NEAR? WHY AM I TALKING WHEN YOU CAN'T EVEN HEAR...SMILE. FROM THIS DAY FORTH YOU SHALL LIVE YOUR LIFE FROM A CHAIR. DON'T WORRY TO MUCH YOU WILL HAVE A NURSE THERE.

(NURSING HOME, HIS MOTHER IS SITTING TALKING TO HIM PRAYING TO JAH TO HEAL HER SON WHEN THE NURSE COMES IN)

MOTHER SAID, "HEY I'M HIS MOM. YO MUST BE HIS NURSE."

NURSE: "HI, HOW ARE YOU? I WAS WAITING FOR AN ASSIGNMENT FOR THE LAST TWO WEEKS. I'M SORRY ABOUT WHAT HAPPENED TO YOUR SON."

MOTHER, "ME TOO."

NURSE, "MAY I ASK WHAT HAPPENED?"

MOTHER, "I CAN'T EVEN TELL YOU." (TEARING UP)

NURSE, "EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT... I WILL TAKE GREAT CARE OF HIM."

MOTHER, "HOW DID YOU GET INTO THIS WORK?

NURSE, "FUNNY YOU ASKED THAT QUESTION... I'M NOT EVEN SURE. I JUST LOVE HELPING PEOPLE."

MOTHER, "I SEE. ARE YOU MARRIED?"

NURSE, "NO, THAT DIDN'T FALL ON ME... I WISH IT HAD."

MOTHER, "WHY DO YOU TALK OF LOVE AS IF IT'S NO MORE?"

NURSE, "NOT SURE, JUST THE WAY IT IS I GUESS."

MOTHER, "HE WILL COME. GOD HAS A FUNNY WAY OF SHOWING UP."

NURSE, "I KNOW."

MOTHER, "WE ALL NEED LOVE."

NURSE, "I KNOW. I would rather possess eyes that know no sight, ears that know no sound,
hands that know no touch, than a heart that knows no love"

(AT THAT MOMENT THE SON SMILED FOR THE FIRST TIME IN WEEKS. PLEASED TO HEAR THE WORDS COME HIS NURSE'S MOUTH. PLEASE WITH JAH AND THE FEELING THAT JUMPED INTO HIS HEART. A THIN RED LINE APPEARED ON HIS MONITOR BEEPING AWAY.)